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 It's been years, and maybe you've buried my memories by now

It's been years and maybe we've forgotten our ways to each other

And since it's been years, and we are miles apart 

I know for sure, how much you meant to me 

How much I cherished you 

How much you lit my world up 

And now since it's been years, I can see you clearer 

There's no fog in the sky, there's no pull backs in my head

Now since it's been years, I know for sure how much you meant to me

Maybe I, to you

It stays this way 

Because since it's been years and maybe you have forgotten me by now

I know for sure that yours were the first touch of love 

That made me feel life's worth it, despite everything

Just to know how beautiful love can make you feel.

And although we are miles apart, I go back to it quite unconsciously, time and again

Without having even the slightest hope that you remember me

How you made me feel stays

It stays 

This way, till the end






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